I haven’t blogged in awhile…
I know. I know. I haven’t blogged in awhile. It’s around 32 days till my wedding. I am terrified and excited all at once. I have really thought long and hard about what I want to do with my life (photography) as well as blogging, I want to be able to youtube vlog, however that probably won’t happen until I either get a video camera or upgrade my DSLR and get lights.
I have really noticed that the clutter of living here for two years and never really sorting through stuff and purging. I really want to embrace minimalism and the lifestyle of less is more. We just have SO MUCH (#blessed) and since we really want to eventually move out of state, it would be so much easier to purge now then later.
One of the things that I’ve noticed is how many paper products that we have that is just sitting. Mail, junk mail, scraps of stupid things, and pictures that need to be reprinted. And since I also want to get down to as little waste as I can a lot of things are being tossed now, rather than keeping them around once I’ve hit the least waste per week goals.
I have A5 planners that I don’t use because I’ve switched over to the Happy Planner/recollections planner and absolutely love them. The binders I’ve noticed are very bulky and make my already heavy purse/diaper bag that much heavier. So I may end up selling them but right now I’m unsure.
We also have a lot of CD’s that no longer have their covers so I may convert them to digital and then throw them away now that I have a working hard drive again. My laptop recently crashed and thankfully I’d just cleaned it out. But now I’m stuck with files from three different computers not including my Macbook Pro that I have to sort, fonts I have to install and deleting duplicates.
It’s a weird feeling getting rid of stuff like this because it seems like the more that goes out the door, the better and less anxiety I feel in my home. I’ve suspected for awhile that my OCD is acting up again since my zen phase of surviving death is over and reality has hit me over and over again, so is my mental health issues.
One thing I have noticed is that the few weeks I lost my CBD vape pen I REALLY felt the difference. I mean I was in such a dark place, and all I wanted to do was sleep. My head hurt a hundred times worse than normal and I blame the fact that I was depressed and at the same time not eating like I should.
That’s changed now that I am vaping the CBD oil again and really getting my diet straightened out and getting back to basics for my bariatric/keto diet. I just no longer feel the need to be OMG consume all the chocolate! When I can just have a chocolate protein drink.
Since we are getting so close to the wedding I’m really trying to take care of my skin and make sure that I don’t have a huge zit on my face the day of the wedding. I’m using noxema and a microderm face was every other day. I’m also wearing my hair up a lot more so that way I don’t get the oils on my forehead.
I’m just super content with life right now and couldn’t be happier with how things are going right now. We are slowly making plans and goals for the future and just enjoying life now.